Sunday 21st February 2010
Gestation: 21 weeks, 2 days
One year ago.
I roll over, my eyes cracking as they open, sleep caked around the edges. I am hot and dry, my head swimming with that weird lethargy following a big night; this time after one of work, not play.
“Morning, love,” I croak.
Suse hugs me tight, letting out a sigh.
“I did a pregnancy test this morning, and it was negative.”
I let it sit for a moment, landing on earth.
“Are you due to check already?”
“No, it’s still four days away. But often they’re positive by now.”
“And often they aren’t,” I say.
We lie for another moment.
“I’m scared, honey.” Suse pauses. “If we’re not pregnant this time, then next month is the left ovary. The dodgy one,” she adds. For extra effect.
There’s nothing to say.
I hold her as we lie there in silence.
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